Have you ever felt like you were so self conscious that you didn’t know how to fit in? You had a group of “friends” but sometimes if felt like you were alone? That was school for me. But I made it that way. I made it miserable everyday. I was living a lie everyday. I felt like no one had much interest, didn’t really listen to me. I never knew what to say. Whatever came out of my mouth was a lie. I won’t get into details, but I made my life so much worse than it should have been. I lost all my friends my junior year. I deserved it big time though. This mistake was a big wake up call. You have to be honest with yourself and others. You can’t sit there and make you life a lie and expect people to throw a pity party because you want someone to listen to you tell a lie. No one wants to be around that. Ive been true to myself and others since school. I didn’t want to go through that whole experience again loosing friends and trust. All of this made me grow up, the biggest lesson of life ever given to me.
My point is, no matter how shy, self consciou or socially awkwar, be honest no matter what. Don’t be me. It’s not worth the humiliation.