i care way too much..it takes a toll on me. i get attached way too fast. i get my heart hurt too much. i’ve been hurt too many times. i give people chance after chance after chance. no matter how bad they hurt me i give them another chance. if someone doesn’t answer me for awhile i always think the worst. i try to not think about the what if’s, it’s hard to do. i have a big heart, it let’s me care-care too much. sometimes it’s a bad thing , but sometimes it’s a good thing. i am trying to not be “too much “. it makes me want to relapse to take my mind off of whatever i’m thinking. i’ve been clean for about three and a half months. everything seems like too much sometimes. i can’t help but care , love, appreciate, etc; too much.
It’s been 3 years and 4 months since my mother died. It’s been 4 months since I ended a 3 year long relationship that ultimately ended because I have no idea who I am. I am 21 years old with no idea what I want to be when I grow up No idea where I am supposed to fit in No idea who I’m supposed to fit in with. I have felt so lost the past 3 years with the loss of my mom and on top of that I was in this relationship that was so new to me. Here I am 3 years later still without my mom but also without my relationship. And I just want to figure out who I am and where I belong in the world.