I am 26 years old and I been seeing a therapist for about a month now and sometimes a day before I go in for that hour, I feel like giving up on my mental health.but then I talk myself into seeing how much I have gotten done in just 1 month..... about 2 years ago I had a car accident. In the vehicle I was driving was my mom and my 3 children and I was pregnant with my 4th child..I was driving back to Las Vegas from California after spending a few days with family. That day I didn't want to leave California I wanted to spend 2 more days since my uncle had died and I wanted to take my mom to the funeral. But because I had to bring my kids back to school and time with their dad I told my mom we had to leave so I started driving at 5 am. I had my sister's husband check my truck the day before I took off and everything was good. While I was on the road for 2 hours in with heavy traffic, I heard a pop in the back of the truck and then a second later another pop and my truck got out of control. I remember trying to control my truck as much as I could but I couldn't I had to press on the brake and I know your not suppose to when your tires pop..but that was my only option. I can hear my mom and son saying "may God's blood cover us" and my 2 other boys crying and screaming. And then everything went black and I just can feel the truck going over a ditch and spinning. Every turn was a big hit to my head against the window and then it stopped. I just remember looking back and my kids and seeing blood coming out my smallest child's face. I looked at my mom and saw she was ok so I told her to try to get out and help my kids because I was unable to unbuckle my seat belt and my right leg was stuck.. after what seemed for ever I hear a voice outside our car asking if we where alive and my mom responded Yes and to please help us and I can hear the voice saying OMG there are children. I asked my older son to try to take his seat belt off and try to help his brothers get out and he did we got them out thru the back window because the truck was upside down leaning on to my side so I had my mom on top off me hanging and I had to help her take her seatbelt off because she couldn't reaCh it. I told her to try and get out even if she had to step on me but I wanted her out to grab my kids..she got out and I can hear people saying that gas was leaking and I needed to hurry up. I tried my best to try to unbuckle myself but it didn't come off so some how pulled the leg part and tried to get my feet out and I thought I'll pull my leg out even if it brakes but at least I'll be out...I dragged my self out from the back and there was a lot of people helping out. We waited for and ambulance got to the hospital and we where all ok..we lost everything in the truck and my mom only remembered one of my sister's number because she has it for almost 15 years. Some nice family saw me and my mom at the hospital and my kids crying we had no money or nothing and we had not ate so they bought them a pizza. They offered us a ride to their home so my kids wouldn't cry.we accepted because they where very kind.my brother picked us up and we got home. Fast forward 4 months after the car accident I had my baby he was born with everything being okay. 1 year after having my son I was on the freeway and got an anxiety attack and flash back to the car accident. It happen a few times after that every time I needed to drive or get on the freeway. Didn't do nothing about it for about 5 months I would try to avoid driving as much as I could and almost never got on the freeway. Until 2 weeks ago after seeing the therapist for 3 hours I got on the freeway with fear but I was able to control my anxiety. Been doing great I drive without fear now. I am working on so much more but for now just knowing I can drive without an anxiety attack is the best feeling ever.
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Feb 18, 2019
Not letting anxiety take control of my life.
Not letting anxiety take control of my life.