Severe Anxiety Attacks

I think I’ve have anxiety since I was 4 years old. EVERYDAY was hell for me. It was hard making friends, talking to teachers, family members, ect.. I was officially diagnosed in 2013 after a horrific car accident I was in. Me and my so at the time were coming home from our first day of school. I already had a tough day. None of my friends had classes with me, except for band. I was just ready to be done for the day. For some reason we took a different way home. So what happened was there’s a highway you have to pull out of, easy to pull out if you pay attention of course. We were good to turn, but a car was in the turn late, changed their mind and slammed into the truck. We we’re t-boned and flipped 3 times across the highway into a mud field. We landed upside down and I didn’t have a seat belt on. Long story short, we were okay but the mental impact the wreck had on me, put my anxiety through the roof. And to top it all off I got my lisence and three weeks later I got into another car acciden. Same thing, I took a different way to school and got fucked pretty much. I didn’t drive for a few years. It got to the point where I would put my jacket over my head so I didnt have to look out of the car. I Had a lot of anxiety just going to the store. I would shake, I would get shortness of breath, on the verge of tears, sweating and I couldn’t get it out of my head of something bad happening in a car. I learned that these were anxiety attacks. They SUCK. Big time. Of course now I’m completely fine with driving. But interaction with others can make me just as afraid. If I said the wrong thing, someone looked at me wrong or if I did something wrong, my head would explode. I literally feel like I have people SCREAMING as loud as they could telling me what is wrong with me and tearing me down. I’m my own worst enemy sometimes. Everyday is a challenge and this will never go away, but I manage anxiety attacks better now than a few years ago. I always try to start my day calm and smoothe. Of course no day is perfect but this really gets my mind set for the day ahead. If you struggle with anxiety attacks, my heart hurts for you. I hope everyone that deals with these finds peace and comfort. Nobody deserves to have anxiety period. But we can’t change it. We can help each other. Reach out to someone you trust. A friend, family member, co-worker who will listen to you. Be open and honest, there’s always someone you can talk to. Im here for anyone and everyone. Sending good vibes to all❤🖤