Hello, Im trying to live my life being the best mother I can be to my 10 year old son. I was 16 years old when i met my sons father and I was with him since then. I have went through ALOT of crap with him. I had family telling me to move on with your life stop being blind by "LOVE". It took me a VERY long time to get to this point in my life where I can finally say I can see everything much clearer now. I grew up so fast and having my son at 18 just took alot from me. I had an addiction problem and I got help for that and still going strong! My sons father has the same issue and he just cant get a hold onto his addiction. I cant change him and he wont change not for his son. I feel guilty at times because of my son having to go through this with his father. My sons father has been in and out of his life. I cant stand to watch it. I live with my parents which I am so thankful for them helping me. I have issues with my parents as well which is a challenge. I have dealt with depression my whole life and its been a struggle and my parents cant wrap there head around my mental issues and we fight all the time. I have went to therapy many many times and I have to say i have learned a whole lot about my self and others and just life in general. I have gotten a decent job a year ago and now i have a full time position and I thank god for that. Im trying to keep my head up high throughout all this, but i just need that extra hand or help to get me through this and i dont have friends or family that can really understand my issues. I started to listen to Kaitlyns podcast with guest Becky and I just enjoy listening to it every morning :) you a'll are so funny and i LOVE IT!! each and everyday is a challenge, but I need to keep my head up high for my boy that i brought into this craziness of a life of mine..
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