After living a lie for years, I finally confided into the first girl ever; a childhood friends, a highschool secret admirer. I lived in denial for months, telling her I wasn’t into her like she was into me... but I found myself always spending time with her, being happier than ever, and cuddling beside her at nightime. It honestly didn’t hit me until she decided she was going to leave for Alberta, and I knew I was loosing a piece of me. She left and only went for a couple weeks, because while she was gone we spoke day in and day out, fell asleep talking to each other on skype.. I finally knew it was time to tell her I really liked her. Once I told her, she booked her flight home... it was the happiest day ever. That happened back in September 2013.
Let me fast forward to October 2018, 5 years later. She left me! 💔 This was the most devastating day of my life, and I’m still grieving. I suffer with sever anxiety and depression, which maybe this was some of the reason for her leaving but 2 weeks prior I finally reached out for assistance with my mental health. I was going to see a councillor, taking medication daily. But maybe I waited to long.