High school love story gone to hell

I have written a lot on this website. It makes me feel so much better to get this stuff off my chest. I love not being judged by anyone like any social media site. I haven’t really spoken much about my love life, but this is when my depression really set in. I promise it’s not cheesy! I was 14, he was 16. We were in band. I only saw him once at my house, but he was with a friend of my brothers. We started talking at a Football game. We instantly clicked. Everything moved a little fast. We started having sex 4 months into our relatio. We never had sex before, it was so awkwar. I didn’t want to do it much after that. We did, but he always begged me to not use a condom. I always said no. But one day I have in so he would shut up. But I was scared, I was on birth control but I had some pregnancy scares. Especially with him not wearing a condom. Anyways, we always had fun in whatever we did. But after 2 years of dating, things got rocky. I only got to see him on the weekends because he worked and I was still in school. He claimed I was too clingy because I called him at 10:45 to make sure he was up and coming to see me like we planned. He wouldn’t answer his phone much but he always had an excuse why he didn’t answer. I got more irrirated with him than I ever had with anyone. I had a graduation party and New Year’s Eve party. He got pretty tipsy, I wasn’t much of a drinker. Anyways I fell asleep first. I was woken up both parties with him having sex with me. It was very screwed up but I never said anything, I didnt want him to be dissapointed in me. About a week after my New Years eve party, he broke up with me in the shittiest way possible. I was sick with the stomach virus. He came over and we cuddled and watched movies all day. We even watched a movie with our song in it. I said I’ll always love you more when I hear this song. He said yeah. Well I fell asleep and he had left. My house was empty. I was angry that he left without telling me because he would always wake me up for a kiss goodbye. I called him and he came back. I was in bed annoyed he left. He came to my bedside and said listen I’m not happy with you anymore. It absolutely broke me. I cried and begged him to talk about it with him, that we could work out anythin. He was silent. After 20 minutes of begging, I become SO pissed off. I told him to leave, and he didn’t. I almost threw a cast iron skillet at him. Well after that, I found out the real reason he broke up with me. He cheated and I should’ve known. I was so naive in high school. About a year into our relationship he was caught making out with a girl behind the bandroom. I never liked her. She tried to be best friends with me and I thought it was sincere. Then we went to New York on a band trip. She was flirtin and making sexual innuendos the whole trip. We were walking on the street and she grabbed his hand and held it for a while. That made me so mad. But I never said anything. After that she was a real bitch to me. She treated me like a little kid in school, dragging me to my spot in band or making me feel like shit because of something I did. Apparently they were screwing around for a while. 2 weeks after we broke up they were together. That’s when I lost it. I was so upset that he picked this fat ass bitch over me. But you know what? I’m so glad I don’t have him in my life anymore. I’m happily to the love of my life. He treats me like such a queen and he is the sweetest person. sometimes life puts us in shitty situations. There’s always something to look forward to in the future🖤