As am writing this please know u may have to rewrite this cause English is not my first language lol. So am going to start with when i was 14 i could just remember beign so close to my sister i wanted to be just like her when she turned 15 she got pregnant she no longer lived in my dad's house so i guess it was like a no shocker we imagined her going to live with her boyfriend to everyone's surprised she actually brought home her boyfriends, friend to meet my dad and told us she was moving in with him even though i knew the truth i kept my mouth shut he was a drug dealer and over 5 years he was a perfect dad they were a perfect family they even added a second child a girl she brought so much love into our lives they were really coming up dealing and transporting i was 19 moved out my dads house to go to ASU when day they invited us to go out to a club and we all had a blast i decided to go back to my sister's house to sleep since we were all drunk and i lived far as i was washing my face i feel someone come behind me and grab i moved and yelled my sister's name she started to scream at him to which he said it was on accident he thought it was her blah blah blah she believed hin whatever whatever never did i ever stay the night again one night i received a call at 3am from my sister i can hear yelling and screaming so i drove to her house i find my nephews in a closet hiding i go into her room she is covered from head to toe he is laying next to her i ask her to get up she refuses she yells at me to leave so i take the kids our the closet and i take them with me i wasn't able to sleep all night the next morning she comes to my apartment and yes he had beat the hell out of her i call the cops hes arrested two days later she shows up to my house with him in the car she says the whole i love hin watever watever she continues to live like this for a while me calling the cops her bailing him out so eventually i just stopped i fell out of luck with work so to save money she offered to let me stay in her house i excepted i figured maybe he will hold back since i live there it didn't i moved out 6months later then she took a trip with her kids to California it was during my birth day the person i moved out with was a memeber of his family the day of my birthday i decided to have a birthday party she invited my brother in law and some of his friends we all got soooo wasted that night mostly everyone had left when i decided to go to bed i recall closing my door and laying down u dont recall what time it was when i feel someone laying next to me kissing me and touching me u started to fight this but i was so drunk i just remember beign hit so hard and waking up the next morning with a busted lip and a black eye i was so in shocked that i went in the shower and tried to wash everything away when his cousin told me she saw him walking out my room and he had told her i had fell hard on the floor i knew what had happened when my sister got home i think she knew something was wrong but didn't know what i didn't tell her anything and that was my mistake i eventually moved out by myself i was so torn lost depressed then comes the day when someone told her what happened but didn't tell my sister exactly what happened one day she got beat so bad that she herself called the cops and that was it the state no longer was going to let him bail out i felt a sense of relief he was finally going to get what he deserved he got 8yrs. But my sister wanted answers and her way of trying to get it was wrong she started to yell at me blaming me for her getting beat for him getting 8yrs she said just tell what happened between you two and just as i was about to tell her the truth my niece and nephew walk in the room and i couldn't i couldn't tell my niece and nephew there dad had raped me or had he that night was so foggy but if i was such a willing participant why was i so beat the next day ever since i told her i had sleep with her husband even though i didn't i took a blame so there kids wouldn't be affected i lost way more than him i lost my sister and nephews. How do people handle this how do people go on........ did i do the right thing.
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