Religious differences, 2 separate lives, my hardest love

Tee Gee · 2019-02-13T16:24:09.641Z

I have been dating a guy for the past 5 years. We met at 21 and are still together. Being this young I did not even consider religion a topic of discussion and that I would be in the middle of it. When I told my parents I was first dating him they asked what religion he was and I said Muslim. My dad lost it and refused to talk about it any further.. he has very strong beliefs about that culture due to world issues today surrounding it. I am Catholic but not religious.. just believe in Christmas. I never spoke to my parents again about this. 5 years later and they still dont know I am dating him because it would just bring alot of drama. I feel im living two different lives. The one where I have met his immediate family and go out together and then the other life where I am single and my family doesnt even know about him. The other issue is that he does not have his life established whereas I do and know what I want. I have a full time job, my own car and have goals I want to achieve. He on the other hand takes care of his family but is comfortable staying in one place not building himself up with a career or car. We have different beliefs but we love each other so much and dont have eyes for anyone else. We trust each other 100%. He wants to raise his kids Muslim but he is very non-traditional since hes the youngest of the family And says he will follow it once he has a family. He doesnt meet my needs especially in communication. I try to bring these issues up to him and he turns the other way and ignores them and tells me im being dramatic. Im not being dramatic, I just want to know where he sees us in the future, if there even is an US. If not, I need to move on so I can find someone on the same page as me. Should it be this hard to be with someone if he is unable to meet my needs? I want to build with my partner and I feel very stagnant with him but I love him so much and cant picture myself without him. Do I break up? Ultimatums probably wont work. I dont want to wait around anymore and I want to have the guts to say goodbye but its too scary to even think about so I stay. It has been eating me up inside everyday because I feel like I have no control over the situation. Do I need to leave in order for him to realize how much he really loves me to get himself established? Im tired of the uncertainty in my future.

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