"I wanted to share my story and also tell you the strength that your website has brought me. I haven't talked about this event with anyone, but I feel that it is time. Writing this already makes me feel better and hopefully when someone else reads it, they feel empowered to share their story.
I was raped when I was little, continually (ages 4-9). When I realized that it was wrong, I told my parents. At this age, I didn't know what to expect my parents to say. Looking back on this time frame of events, I can't remember much about the night that I told my parents. I remember a quick conversation, and that was that. From my professional career, I understand that when something traumatic like this happens, we block out events. As an adult, I wish I could remember what my parents said so I could feel comfort from their words.
I still see this family member and it brings a rush of resentment and a flashback to the memories. As I have grown up and away from home, it feels more right to cut this person completely out of my life- without an explanation to others.
Fast forward to junior high and high school. I was always comparing myself to other females. I was never enough and never happy with who I was. This made it extremely difficult to form healthy friendships and relationships.
I am now 21 and married. Everyday, I wonder if I should have told my husband when we were dating/engaged instead of when we were married. And how would this conversation even begin?
Thank you so much for reading and my wish for sharing is that it brings power and strength to someone else. "